Journal

Hey there! My brain is exploding with all the things I've been learning in the past few days. The desire to learn it all is so intense, but I need to be mindful of how much time I'm spending here! Nevertheless, I am finding this to be incredibly enjoyable and rewarding.

I've spent all of yesterday trying to wrap my mind around the basics of css and let me tell you... I have no idea what I'm doing! Even so, I tried to write my own file and the result is the page layout that you're currently seeing :)
I am still unsure of the font I picked: I think it's cute, but I also think that I'd like something a bit easier to read. I guess there's no rush to make the perfect choice: I'll take my time to explore my options and see what I like.
Anyway, I'm really proud of what I've come up with so far! It's still a bit bare and it could use some changes here and there, but it's mine! Like, I did that! Mostly on my own! I really think it's amazing <3

Now, here's some thoughts and feelings.
I love summer, the way it allows more freedom into my life, the hot weather, wearing cool caps and lighter clothes, but it does make for some messy days sometimes.
The absence of a stricter routine for me to follow means that I'll forget to eat, I'll forget to drink, I'll forget to sleep... I'll get all caught up in... well, either some hobby or doomscrolling, with no regard for my mental or physical wellbeing. That in turn makes me feel tired, weak and irritable... not that I'm not any of those things when I'm well fed and rested, but it sure would help, you know!
I'm trying to figure out a way to actually care for myself and maybe follow some kind of routine, but it's incredibly hard!

What's keeping me afloat is mostly the incredible amounts of love that I have for my friends, and of course the love that they always show to me <3
Speaking of love, more than one of the people I've shown this website have commented on how much they appreciated the last entry, specifically the part on accepting help and demonstrations of love and affection, and some have even outright expressed a wish for me to make a dedicated space on here to collect the expressions of love that I receive throughout my daily life. Now, I know that my friends are all incredibly smart and always have the coolest ideas, but I really think they're onto something here, y'know?
Some sort of affection log could be something for me to work on, and a way to show appreciation for the amazing people in my life, as well as keep a grateful outlook on life.

Wow, what a long entry! And it's only the second one!
If you've read this far, thank you for taking the time to be here with me and my thoughts.
I hope that this day is kind to you, and if it isn't, I hope that you get some relief soon. Know that there is always a better day to look forward to <3
Off to cook dinner now! See you next time!

This is pretty cool, isn't it?
I've been at this coding thing for just a couple of days and I'm having lots of fun. I guess I'm still not sure of where this will go but I'm kinda hoping I'm able to stick to it. Having your own little space on the Internet seems kinda rad.

Since this is supposed to be a space to gather my thoughts, here's something I've been reflecting on these past few days. My parents and sister have been on vacation for a few days now and I'm in charge of taking care of our home and pets. For a couple of times now, I have come home to cleaner spaces and tidier rooms, which I have later learned was my aunt's doing.
It felt a bit embarassing at first: having such a messy house that your relatives feel like they have to clean it when they come over! But after thinking on it for a bit I've realized that maybe it is just one of the ways that people can say "I love you".
My friends also help me with housekeeping at times, and I've noticed that I also usually try and tidy my loved one's spaces when I am alone in their homes and I get the chance to.
Maybe it's not so shameful to receive help you didn't ask for. Maybe it can just be a beautiful reminder of the people that love us and want us to thrive.

With that said, I think I'll be going to sleep soon. Thank you for reading this far and have a good rest of your day/night!